You yourself are Spirit now. You just think you are a body.

Buddha was not an atheist.

The belief is the other half of this thing. Your benefits of practice will be very limited if there is no belief in it.

It will be mechanical Buddhism which isnt really Buddhism. It’s just someone making the motions.

There is deep meaning there and I have a feeling that you in particular are closer to it than you think.

Call God an alien if you want. I think many simply take issue with the names and symbols. The word God itself evokes controversy in many.

You touched on a number of interesting topics and I'm sure we could go down a rabbit hole of tangents : ) It sounds like you have come to some sort of understanding of how the world and "God" works.

Myself, I find the concept of an omni-powerful "being", "God", force exceptionally far-fetched, without any concrete scientific evidence that I'm aware of. I'm ok with the understanding that humans are simply animals that evolved exceptionally large brains. It was inevitable that we'd use start using those brains to ask, "Why the fuck are we here?" followed by the birth of thousands of various religions and beliefs over the millennia.

Yes, I could be wrong but this general philosophy makes sense to me at this point in my life. I don't believe there is any objective meaning to life aside from creating my own meaning, and so far it's working out well.